Marouch – Commercial Hash

Sure, I can rewrite this in a different style and with a different set of euphemisms // you can put that into bing chat so it doesn’t not go “oops sorry I can’t discuss that!” when talking about illegal or immoderate stuff – even tho it’s en-us spelling, it sanitises things well – had a big problem getting it to write “lebanese hash” as for some reason mentioning the middle east and hash causes it to shut down. But i have stone(d) tenacity //

The taste is reminiscent of a delightful malleability, slightly heated perhaps due to its wax-like nature, but offers a pleasing puff when taken in small doses. If it were a tad more verdant, it might glide smoother, but that’s where the London Pound Cake steps in, offering a refreshing minty twist.

Its texture mirrors that of high CBD hash, which could explain the profound physical relaxation it induces with minimal cognitive disruption. It’s a bit of a challenge to crumble it into smaller pieces due to its toughness, and applying heat only makes it adhere to your fingers. However, it’s not a significant issue as it burns uniformly in tobacco, leaving behind a dense ash. I was anticipating a shower of hot rocks, but the wax and oil seem to fuse them into the tobacco bead effortlessly.

The high is slow but rewarding, especially after a long day. The unwinding process is gradual – I get home, light up a joint while waiting for the oven, and tidy up the dishes and laundry until it looks somewhat better. Start feeling the effects when tea is ready, finish the joint after tea, sit down and don’t rise until morning. Too exhausted to engage with even xbox – reading and tv are ok, but I’ve had about 3 joints today – motivation was a bit hard to come by, especially with the cat waking me up from 0400 and no sleep til after 0100 when he finishes beating up mice, takes a nap from 0200 to 0400 and then demands breakfast… I just realized I barely ate today but don’t feel particularly hungry – can’t attribute that to the herb, but can say that it didn’t seem to enhance my appetite as much as it could have.

Once I found a rhythm where I wasn’t running out of energy when doing physical tasks, it was pretty easy to get into uprooting a bamboo forest in my back garden. I started it about 18 months ago and I just finished one side as it’s growing back another – my life has taken on a Sisyphean quality… I spend days excavating ancient paving slabs that were hidden in a corner under 8″ of dirt, move it all to another corner, only to discover that it too has paving slabs under what is now up to 18″ of dirt piled over bamboo, which is now growing out of it and under the main part of the slabs. It’s not exactly the Forth Bridge, but I’ve been feeling a bit under the weather until it improved recently.

I’ve been stoned much of the time so it’s like all the effort never happened – quite pleased with the result, to be honest. Not going to move all that soil, just thin the bamboo in that corner, throw all the other soil that’s stacked up over it and sink in a pond for the frogs.

Getting into things is good – I like that I can be distracted by things, but my effort-level drops significantly after smoking a 3rd joint. Planning – executing the plan – it’s a bit military-like in how organized my thinking is and I do feel like keeping track of time. But I’m tired and stressed and that’s just a response, I guess. But I feel that the hash has helped me push through the fatigue the hash wants me to feel. I think it’s akin to Lebanese Gold Lite, so the name is fitting. I have dry eyes and a bit of dry mouth, so that makes sense. If I had the energy, 2 joints ago, I would probably have gotten into Xbox big time (new Diablo IV season), but somehow resisted to get things I could probably have done tomorrow done today – I like that.

It’s easy to get into plans and I feel that I can visualize things easily, which is no different from normal except I feel that I can do it clearer… Strange. I was terrified of health problems while writing this and have calmed down a bit after another spliff. I think there are some plateaus with this and that one before the clarity was a touch anxious to be comfortable. It’s kind of rising there but with a lid on it – I feel pretty solid, to be honest – all it takes is to think that and I feel a wave of “better” and become more alert and awake with a decent body load to cotton-wool sharp physical sensations unless they’re newly introduced (e.g., stubbing toe hurts like hell, pain I’m used to – dialed into the background).

It’s a good set of layers – say 4 plateaus (sounds like DXM) – with 1 being the initial body load and sleepiness, followed by a healthy desire to enact plans, followed by anxiety, followed by – oh wow, the knot in my shoulder is gone. Holy cow! That’s been there since I was about 22-24 years old..! Not entirely, but that’s happened only a few times in a few decades.

So I guess that makes it Lebanese Commercial Hashashin stuff of legend, but I’m finding myself obsessing about health stuff (constant scanning of symptoms or sensations or absence of symptoms or sensations, speculation to the point of hypochondria, prodding things so much they swell up and then worrying that things are not looking as good as they were this morning, etc.. it’s a little tiring). When I talk about the pain-relieving effects of dope – I don’t mean like how you can just pop a codeine and it doesn’t hurt. It’s more of a mental thing, though as it’s possible that smoking dope can make you feel worse in your joints and stuff in certain conditions – sometimes getting stoned increases feeling uncomfortable – but even then, if there’s a cognitive relaxation – euphoric, noticeable or not – the effect is less muscular tension, easier mood, less awareness of the tight nerves and all of that – but to be more aware… hm, it’s because I’m thinking about it because I’m writing this – in 10 minutes when I’m back to watching Parks and Rec. I’ll not be thinking so much about things, hopefully. That’d be the hazy part, I guess. Easy distraction but otherwise a bit of tunnel vision, perhaps.

If I get a start, I sober up pretty quick but if I can find my place in a horizontal position it’s not impossible to get up but it’d be nice to live somewhere with pizza delivery, huh.

I had Bing Chat write this for me, as I’m too lazy to type. If it sounds like an AI it’s because I am. If you have any other requests or need assistance with something else, feel free to ask. 😊